Wednesday, January 23, 2013


 It's cold. It's dark. It's really bloody cold.

Why do I enjoy being fat and wearing sweats all winter?  My brain knows quite well that when summer comes, I'll regret being fat and wearing sweats all winter. 
Being cold, tired, uninspired, and mostly cold, seem like pretty good reasons to sit around and be a blob... for a day.  Not for a whole season.  WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME??  I just want to cuddle up in a bunch of blankets and baggy clothes and drink tea and eat toast.  I'll letcha know how that works out.

I've noticed that when I've got one important thing right where it needs to be, everything else is easier.. likewise, it's pretty obvious when I'm a wreck.  A mental case. A nut job. Psycho.
I shall now continue to elaborate with further ado.

The hardest challenges of my day: 
2. feeling motivated
3. going to bed

(in all honestly this should be on the list too:  4. being nice.. and while I'm at it I might as well add:   5. talking.. but this is the fine print, you didn't see this. Carry on.)

Amidst all this slobby lazy ridiculous bumish-ness, the small part of my brain that's still trying to think realistically is saying:  "oh hey, you're really gonna wish you had done something about this when it gets warm and you wanna wear something other than hoodies and sweat pants.. Go run three miles. now. Oh, and stop eating that sugar.  And bread. some sit-ups wouldn't hurtya either. k-- go now.  Okay, now. now. now. annnnny day now. now. okay, tomorrow."

The larger part of my brain is saying:  damn its cold.
And more helpful things like, "pshh you can do all that any time. It only takes a month to drop 10, you got time to be fat.  Oh it's just a few chocolate chips.  Yeah, it's just a loaf of bread.  Hmmm..look at that list of stuff you need to do..woww there's no way you're gonna get all that done, why don't you just sit there and do nothing?  Or possibly pace back and forth like an idiot trying to figure out what to do first?  Maybe you could sit down at the sewing machine, pick up that paint brush, the math book, a freaking broom, anything for a sec and then get overwhelmed and go back to being pathetic.  Put on some more socks and get another cuppa joe.  Sounds good? Great! I thought so too..."

Obviously my natural instinct is to hibernate.
But I know it will be worth it to put some effort into being productive.. it usually is. So I am; because summer is also worth the effort, and it's getting closerrrr ;)


Monday, January 14, 2013

Light Up The Sky

So the sunset last night was cool.  Pretty average I would say, but pretty nonetheless.
After the sun had disappeared behind the trees and hills, the sky became a dull pattern of soft colors.

The longer I stared at the sky the more I realized why something so average was suddenly so beautiful.. My entire view of the sky had become a rainbow; the colors were not bright and dazzling, they did not stab at me with the obvious hues and shape like the magic marker rainbows my little sister draws.  The colors were washed-out and faded, but intense.  blues, purple, green, yellows, orange, pink, and reds gently transitioned into the dark skyline.

While I stood there staring at the sky like a sentimental idiot with my brain leaking out my ears and then freezing in the balmy 12 degree (and dropping) temp, I thought about promises.. of all things.  And then wiped the snot off my frozen nose.

god makes a promise in Genesis 9:11-17, a "covenant" really.  Specifically with Noah, the dude that got to hang out in a massive boat full of animals and animal dump for nearly six weeks.  But it also says that all the generations to come are part of the promise as well.  It says that every time a "rainbow" cuts through the sky, he will remember his covenant with us.

12 And God said, “This is the sign of the covenant I am making between me and you and every living creature with you, a covenant for all generations to come: 13 I have set my rainbow in the clouds, and it will be the sign of the covenant between me and the earth. 14 Whenever I bring clouds over the earth and the rainbow appears in the clouds, 15 I will remember my covenant between me and you and all living creatures of every kind. Never again will the waters become a flood to destroy all life. 16 Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth.”

Soo, all that to say:  I don't realize just how often that is.. I always thought rainbows were such a rarity, and as a kid I wondered why god wouldn't make that a more regular occurrence since it was so important.  And its always meant more to me than just a promise not to flood the earth again.. it seems to me that it is more an expression of his love and care, a gentle indication that he is with us.

 But it turns out, it is a regular occurrence.  Though perhaps a more subtle gesture of his love and mercy, he does remind us more often than we realize.. Far too often I take all that for granted, the love and mercy stuff.  But its a good reminder for me every time he lights up the sky ;)


Sunday, January 13, 2013

Smurf Murder

I shall now speak quite randomly of Smurf murder and blue hair.. 
any connection between the two is quite possibly possible and may be kept to yourself if, 
by chance, you happen notice any such coincidence....

This is me. and my recently re-dyed blue hair. It makes me happy having blue hair.


I've been told it smells like the blueberry chick from "Strawberry Shortcake"? Honestly not sure what that means. I'm thinking those little dolls that stink like yummy stuff.


When you use hair dye you're supposed to put petroleum jell on your skin so it won't stain, but I don't care that much, and I got tired of ruining all the white undershirts I jacked from my brother. So if you ever wonder why my arms and shoulders are blue and slightly purple, that's why.
P.S. see my purty dreadlocks?? That one with the massive metal bead is cool. it has a dragon on it :]


  post-dying.. it's still a mess ;P

I'm wanting to try red/orange/yellow this year.. I think it would be interesting if the ends of my hair looked like they were on fire. funfun..

love, abbey